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after chatting with my cousin, i realise that CNY now really different from
previous when grandma was around...
time pass really that fast and now come to the 3rd CNY without my grandma...
it really make me think a lots when cousin mention bout 'po po'...
cant even control my tears...i missed her...

heart aching...
bleeding....i wonder why ppl can treat their parents like nothing...
old folks home, izit the only place we can go after old ???
not even a place that can stay with our own kinds ??

i saw these when i pay my father's god mother a visit at the old folks home...
she now aledi 89years old...she stay there cos her daugther got no time to take care
of her and of cos she willing to stay there, cos they hired a nurse to take care
of her...she feel happy...

read these :

当我老了，不再是原来的我，
请理解我，对我有点耐心。
当我把菜汤洒到自己衣服上时，当我忘记如何系鞋带时，
请想一想我是如何的耐心的教你。
当我一遍又一遍的重复你早已听腻的话时，
请耐心的听我说，不要打断我，
你小时候，我不得不重复那个讲过千万遍的故事来哄你入睡。
当我需要你帮我洗澡时，
请不要责骂我，记得小时候我千方百计地哄你洗澡的情形吗？
当我对新事物不知所措时，
请不要嘲笑我，想想当初我怎么耐心的回答你每一个“为什么”
当我双脚疲倦而无法行走时，
请伸出你有力的双手来扶我，就像你小时候学走路时，我扶你那样。
当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，
请给我一点时间让我会想，因为其实对我来说，
谈些什么都不重要，只要你能在一旁听我说，
我就很高兴了。

and these are all those word in old ppl hearts...
get it ???

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CNY mood is getting fade...
since the day i had start work...
jus the 3rd day of CNY i had started to scold ppl liao...
i was trying to avoid it all the while..
but really cant...cos they really pissed me off....

working make my life like hell...
i should be happy as the sales was getting better...
but it let me feel like hell..
when ppl start making mistake, wrong order, extra charge...
what the hell...and damn it...i am so tired till i din ever took my med
and i jus slep like tat....

this morning another tired morning for me to wake up...
915am...hahah..i still can make it on time...
well....wondering tonite what will happen again...

i wanted to have a movie...
movie movie movie...
but my schedule was too full......
arghhhhh.....

i am terrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
terrible tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
terrible moodless!!!!!!!!!!
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