转眼又快一年了，

再过3天，又一个新的开始了。

希望一切顺心顺意，

希望一切如愿以偿。

加油吧！

sometime i might think people are greedy enough to ask for more...

by doing something that which hurting other and themselves...

trying the best way to communicate with people,

sometime i was thinking, why people always taking for granted..

is it a must to treat people in nice way?

whereby people never appreciated at all?

i am freaking tired to face this..

although i know that will be a best experience that i ever get...

i am freaking tired to think that..

although i know that i should and must done it...

and well...

i am just too nervous to handle it again...

*i hope i can spend this special day with you, seriously....

冬至快乐。。

这是回国后的第二个冬至。。。

比去年过的幸福，因为有妈亲手做的汤圆。。。

晚餐吃得很丰富，虽然不是同一个时间一起吃，

可是总会有团圆的意义，

因为我相信，只要有心，不管在哪，

家人的心，依然紧紧地跟我们系在一起。。。

对不起，最近因为工作太多，太忙，

忙到有点透不过气了，

没有多的时间陪你，

我知道你不开心，

除了对不起，还是对不起。。。

今天的一通电话，

把一切都说明了，

你的不安，我的忧虑，

今天已有了答案。

信息惹的祸，

不管我们如何反抗，

结果还是一样，

应不应该接受这一切？

回到过去~~~

我欣然接受一切的痛苦，

我欣然接受一切的误会，

是因为我相信，会有雨过天晴的一天。。。

但心，依然是痛的。。。

今天似乎很累人，

出了一些意想不到的状况，

虽然说是意料当中，可是真的太突然了，

我真的突然发现，原来我是多么的无助。。。

你问我怎么办，

我要面对时，你却说不好，

解决方式不多，但也不少，

可是偏偏就拿不定主意，

无能的我真的，很彷徨，

你问我的理智到哪去了，

我竟然回答不了。。。

对不起，事情发生时我总不在你身边，

对不起，每次都让你自己一个人面对。

我很想站出来，

可是偏偏你却不让，

你要自己面对，

你害怕他们会伤害我，

可是我不怕。。。

我宁可面对他们的是我，

起码你所受的伤害比我来得少。。。

我的心，也会好过些。。。

我想要告诉你，

我会跟你一起面对所有的事情，

请不要把我摔在一边。。。

因为酱，我会更痛。。。

xb's~~ black currant w aloe vera

mine~ Malt Milk Ice Blended

Our's~~Japanese Octopus

mine~ Barcelona Chicken Chop

and xb's~~ Marmite Chicken Chop

8th Dec...

5months.....

i was trying my very best to comfort myself...

to spend a day with xb...

and thanks to xb, you really brighten my day...

we will always go there...

movie day on Sunday...6th...

Twilight : New Moon...

Nice...Edward still that handsome...

Bella still that pretty...

but the ending of the story was like.....

ya, jus like what i facing now...

the promise dateline ended 2010 march...

now 2009 dec...

you had never seen wad i trying to do...

maybe you re right...

i shd not given out any promise...

and now everyday i was checking on my email,

seeking for better job...located at SG...

only GOD knows what am i doing...

no one knows...none!!!!! not even you know me...

i shdnt ask those stupid question in this evening

if only i know u not in the mood....

i shdnt reemphasized the promise

if only i know u won believe it....

and well, back to the point....

i still a LOOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i think i really need to change my mind...

doing the things that i think i need to do for my own,

i will and i should be the one who stop everything in this world...

cos a LOOSER never deserved people's thrust and love...

bye people....

your words make me feel hurt,

make me feel like bleeding,

make me feel like i really a looser...

xb ask me during lunch time,

she said: dear, have you ever regret to come back to msia?

looser said: yup...

she said: but why still you come back?

looser said: i dunno...maybe i shd say i dunno how to face million tons of problem i facing by myself?

she said again: but dear, i tot u got lots of frens there?

looser answered: well, ya..but still they will have their life, their bf/gf, will have a family...and will leave me.....

she said: how bout if we go there tgt?but u must work hard now to learn more b4 u go back there...at least u will not only stuck at outlet mgr but can up to other level...

looser said: sure of cos....i wanted this lots...but i need time... )=

and now......

well, karen ling really a looser...

and hey people,

just come and attack her,

she kind of died dog now....

no way and strength even to fight back,

cos clear and simple....

LOOSER.........

大老远的从KL驾着车到PENANG去喝她的喜酒，

心情起伏很大，不是因为她，而是因为与我同行的朋友们，

他们的任性让我吃不消。

看见蕙兰幸福的笑容，我觉得很开心，她找到了他，

一个真正疼爱她的他。只希望他们都是幸福的。

这次的喜宴，让我有机会再见到我新加坡的朋友们，

很开心，但却很累。。因为路途遥远，我一个人驾着车，

还要承受着如果走错路，被鸟的压力。。。

我很想我的白。。。

真的很想。。。