遇上了一场小意外，

被一个懵懵恰恰的人撞伤了左脚，

脚跺有点肿，膝盖有点黑青，

走起路来一拐一拐的，

有点帅。。。哈哈哈哈

因为跟铁拐李很像，

但就没有满脸胡须。。。

我没事，不用担心。。。

这场小意外，也许会给我一个从生的机会。。。

原来真相有时并不是想象中那么的难以接受，

有个窍门的，在知道真相前，把那所谓的真相想的更加的残酷，

到你真正去面对时，反而觉得它犹如皮毛。。。

thank you for all the wishes,

all the gifts...

and all the sms....

i had a wonderful day..

27th oct 2009...

a wonderful day for me...

spending a whole day out with xb..

although nowhere else to go,

but jus feel nice...

10月27日晚上10点27分，

你的一句话让我觉得很开心，很甜。。。

谢谢你陪了我一整天。 <333

it coming again...

still something never get out from my mind...

everytime when it comes near to me...

i got kinda of phobia bout it...

how can i get rid with these? and it won be happen again??

i had started a new life here and these the 2years i passing thru the day without u,

but why still u haunted me?

phobia cos i really scared it will happen again,

never had these feeling since last nite after a song...

i had been thinking too much maybe...

but i jus cant help..

i really scared and worried...

* everything in my mind now is not for me,

everything in my mind now is jus for u,

caring bout ur feeling, ur thinking, and everything,

i jus dun wan you to be hurt...

but it seem like never got to work out...

and you re hurt, sorry it was my bad*

another playboy thingy here for both of us...

and a pair of rabbit which i cant upload that photo, dunno why...

i totally in love with 'playboy' ^^

and and and...stupid cough and flu getting worse...

make me cant sleep for the whole night..

block nose..coughing...

aaarrrggghhh....

and dunno where this pervert came from...

calling me middle of the night 2am...non-stop giving me miss call..

and the number of miss call up to 20times...

night mare!!!!!!

gosh....help me!!!!!!!!

生病了，伤风感冒，咳嗽。。。很辛苦。。。

人在店，心在哪？

想不通一些事，

就想不通，沉默是一种罪？

人也变得语无论次了。。。

在电台听到了这首歌，突然觉得它很适合你，

这几天的我突然感到很幸福，很甜。。。

那幸福的感觉远远盖过了那恶梦。。。

你，愿意让它持续下去吗？

品冠-疼你的责任

每次你任性時說的一些話　你知道那有多傷人嗎
但我頂多只氣個三分鐘吧　最後依然體貼的送你回家
有時想如果我不是一直讓　你也許會懂得學著體諒
但是我完全無法硬著心腸　做得讓你有一點難過失望

總覺得有疼你的責任　要你是最快樂最單純的人
因為你讓我的心變得豐盛　原來不奢望的變成可能
總覺得有疼你的責任　讓你做最輕鬆最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一種信任　愛的瞭解包容才算愛得完整

中秋节快乐！！

还以为今年的中秋节要自己在公司渡过，

还好妹妹和妹夫没有在家庆祝，

今晚的晚餐还好，

气氛还不错。。。

回国后的第一个中秋，感觉不赖。。。

今天的生意并不很理想，

不过也好，起码他们不会那么累。。。

希望你也有一个开心愉快的家庭晚宴。。。

Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

Oh I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you

第一年回到自己的地方过中秋，

感觉怪怪的，仿佛家人已经不再注重这节日了，

人回到了自己永远的避风港，但心却想着往外跑。。

人是不是就永远那么的矛盾？

失去的是才最好的？

我失去了一些永远都不可能再拥有的东西，

在那当儿，我也发现我从来没有在阴影中走出来。。。

那伤害也许对我来讲真的太大？

当真正的去面对时，竟然发现其实我并没有那么大的勇气。。。

昨晚妹妹帮我做了一个简单的心理辅导，

面对着她，我竟然丢下一向有的大姐风范，

抱着她痛哭。。。

到现在为止，心虽然轻松了许多，但人也累了。。

那一切的情况，历历在目。。。

慢慢的被挖掘出来，一次过的面对，原来真的很痛。。。

妹妹从来没发现到我的情况越来越严重，

因为我从来没有跟她用心的谈。。

因为我一直掩饰着自己。。

因为我一直为他寻找借口。。

也因为他真的老了。。。

曾经想过，狠狠的骂他一顿，

曾经想过，用力的拥抱着他，

曾经想过，大声地告诉他，我是真的很爱他。。。

可是这都是曾经。。。

我到现在为止，还找不到该有的勇气。。。

我现在学习着如何面对我心中的两把声音，

在学习着怎样面对我心里的那根刺。。。

我真的在学习着。。。

i learnt lots of thing todae...

most of these were psychology...

fren of mine and sis of mine helping me to came out from 'shit'...

until now then i now that since i was a little girl,

there lots of things never get resolve..

and it always in my heart, and is really bottom of my heart..

till recently, i found out that the cycle came back again to me...

i talk to Sharon, a counselor for me i can say...

she help me to find out the roof cause...

and i had never think this will happen...

the person who hurt me deep, was my dad...

surprisingly...i even cant believe it...

but it was so true when i cry non stop while i talking bout it...

it was in Sharon office...

when i was home jus now,

i told my sis about that,

she also trying to help me..

but anw, she make me cry more even worse...

till my eyes swollen....

luckly wking late tmr...

well, it seem like really works...

i now feeling better and really better....

&karen really tired...