i was pissed off yet angry!!!!!!!
think this is the 1st time i shouted my staff from the 1st day work till now
really cant stand it liao...

it make me recall back when the 1st time i scolded Jimmy..
jus look like the same picture...

TIRED...ANGRY...

well,
anyway i going to meet up with some of my 'old' friends later
i had been long time din see them, have a good chat with them...
really hope that tonite can enjoy with them...
love to talk to them...

i dreamt when i taking a short nap
rach, i saw you!!!
wee...we at HONG KONG Disney Land...
we shop around HK...wow!!!!

and damn it...
my thailand staff wake me up >.<

well well well....
hope to continue the dream tonite...hmmm...
haha...

LOVE <3333333333

today's blog is for juliana and kathy.

Juliana,
you re the eldest girl at home if i not wrong,
so which mean same as me...
i advise u to read on my story...
of cos kathy, i will need u to read on too...

i am a eldest sister in a family of 5 siblings
i had to do housework everyday before school
and even after school...even i sitting for my N lvl, O lvl, even final exam in poly
for ? years....lost count...
every time, anything goes wrong,
i am the 1st person kana scold...
i hate my brother and sisters alots...
i hate them why every time they did thing wrong,
mother won scold them, but always only me, me and me!!!!!!!
mother bias...even my father...i hate this family lots and jus like wad u feel now...

everyday i quarrel with my sisters,
my brother and sisters hate me lots too...
i never allowed them to touch my thing,
not even a pcs of paper...

i ran out from home 1 day
i sit at a garden not far away from my house,
i looking at those kiddo with their family...
wow...they are so happy...but why not me?
getting late...last time not so advance,
no hand phone..mother started finding me up and down...
and she found me with tear...
i was home.........

few days later, mother scolded me again cos brother falls down while playing ,
i was so angry and i fight back...
i shouted so loud to my mum,
i scolded her bias...she stop and look at me,
keep repeating wad i had say... and ask me why..
i told her everything...and i regret wad i had done...
MY MOM CRY IN FRONT OF ME...
and she ran away from home,
never came back for 2days..............

the 2days for me like hell...
i need to take care of other, yet i need to cook,
i need to wash cloth, do this do that...
and i finally know why always i am the one who need to take these...

not easy to be a eldest bro or sis in a family..
everything that parents want us to do,
parents scolded us, is jus because they LOVE us so much...
and because u re the eldest, u shd had set a good example for ur brother and sister...
we re carrying lots of responsibility,
looking back those thing that you had done,
look at ur brother and sister now,
they might doing wad u had did it b4...

i am not saying who right, who wrong...
i jus wan and hope you wll think and think it again...

if one day u say,
jie, u bias! i will give u a good question...
tell me how to bias a people?
and.....
if i bias, why shd i still concern bout you?

爱，父母对长大后的孩子永远开不了口。
爱，对长大以后的孩子而言更难以开口。
爱，与兄弟姐妹之间的联系是坚韧无比。
爱，对朋友们的呵护与关怀是无可质疑。

my mood was affected much after received a msg from uncle Barry
he going to leave pepper lunch, and today is his last day in funan...
Uncle Barry is the best uncle that i ever had in my working life in pepper lunch..
he always there for me, he brought me medicine when i was sick,
he told me lots of his story when i was bored...
he jus like a family member of mine...
he tought me lots bout life...

wondering why people afford always not been appreciated,
wondering why people always not being respected well,
the problem came from where? came from who?

is complicated......

me and Nan..my best helper in kitchen...love her so much...
me and Sing..my runner..
Zheng and me. He is the only one who can speak chinese...

and he also caling me jie

OMG!!! look at Pao's plate...

back to work after spending 2days with rach...

hmmm...still okie, not so tired...

cos today not as busy as weekend..

not going to blog much, cos mummy chasing me to bed...

i will blog more if is free tml after lunch peak...

nite ppl...

nite rach...

i am so suay today>.<

LOVE <3333333

there something that i din get to update in last nite de blog.
i received tong wai's msg,
so sweet....thanks bro, i am doing fine...and i will continue to take care myself...
we waiting for you to join us in every single trip that we planning to have...

and the most important thing is,
FINALLY I TOLD HIM....

i was very pissed and sad after leaving GH yesterday,
yet hungry...we supposed to reach home around 430pm,
ended up 6pm i reached my home..
he used the wrong way yet he drove very fast...
and almost hit a car and there was a small litttle stone hit our mirror,
cos it little bit crack...

and when reach his house, i finally burst out..
i jus like a crazy lady throwing all the temper out toward him..
and finally told him all the thing that i was hiding before...

it damn tired to hide from him,
but anw thanks to his caring and understanding,
i now feel more better and not to STRESS out cos of this...

rach say i had get my mr right,
perhaps is true....

rach, the LOVE that i told you...
for me and sw, thk rach
Love with Ring
tks girl, bring sweet back to my life..

i am back to post!!!!

seem like day pass damn fast...

and now 24th...

it will be the longest post i did i think...

and 28th September (coming soon)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEAN!!!!!!!

22th Sept,

i waited so long for this day...

and finally they come...

i was so happy on that day,

time passed very fast as well...

but when the clock show me 5pm,

yet i haven received any call from Rachel and XZ,

not even a missed call...i started to worried...

i tried to call their hp although i knew that their phone

din have roaming service, just try my luck on it...Fail...

i tried to search online hotel number and called, just to check

whether they had checked in..their full name needed...

i gave them their name but no record!!!

OMG!!!i freaky worry...i text HuiXin, and even called Jean

to double confirm their name and check again with hotel...

they found 1...but registered under Tan Hui Xian...

not the Tan Hui Sian i looking for...

AGR!!!! i dun care, i leave down a msg to get this THX to call me

5mins after put down the phone, my hp rang and THANKS GOD!!!!

finally received their call...of cos i inform HX and Jean so that they need no worry...

and i swear i will need to scold both of you!!!

hey rach and xz, do u knw the couples of minutes really make my heart stop jumping??? and the moment that i leave down msg and waited for that 5mins, jus like waiting ppl for my whole life??? i am glad and thankful finally u get to call me...thanks god!!!

going up to GH tgt with S.W

i was so excited when the distance getting nearer and nearer..

i was so happy to see you!!

well, i cant bear to scold you and xz after all...

and we went for movie on the 1st nite!!

MIRROR...i wanted to watch this show weeks ago,

but s.w dun like this type of movie...

narh..nvm, my beloved mei mei and didi go with me...

hahaha...and he have to go in too....

yeah yeah!!!

it was very early after finish the show..

yarh, 3am...early right??

we went back to the room and rest...

OMG!!the 2 guys snooring loud...

1st is xz, follow by sw...rach said i did but i jus like never slep for tat night...

narh..maybe yes...cos i did sleep like for 2omins barh...

the night is damn long............

23rd Sept,

okie guys, theme park's time...

well...we had a great and fun day....

flying coaster, mini roller coaster, jumbo, haunted house

pirate ship, crazy lab, dinasour land, bumper boat and many more...

really fun!!! [might see those pic upload by rach in her blog...]

and my heart almost came out when playing the flying coaster...

yarh, it let me experince the fun when being superman/superwoman,

but is DAMN SCARY yet FUN....ops...narh...i dunno how to explain it...

maybe you would want to try?haha

and comes today, 24th Sept,

we went for buffet breakfast before book out...

it was included when we book for the room...

after breakfast we went for shopping...

and collect our WAX HAND...

we had 3 pairs of hands...

Rach and XZ, Rach and me, me and SW

and we get 1 more pairs of ring!!!

book out at 12pm...

shopping again before rach and xz leave...

and lastly...3pm come!

i should use chinese blog these...cos lots of chim word that i dunno how to express in English whereby my English was Pte Ltd...

开心快乐的日子总是过得那么快，

一瞬间又来到分手的时刻，

眼看着时间一分一秒地过去，

却没有办法把它给暂停下来，

多希望它能为我们停留多一会，

但它却不近人情地继续往前走，

车站的乘客来来往往，

有的眼中带笑，有的眼中带伤，
而我却在你眼中看到了不舍，

在你眼眶中翻滚的泪水，

在秒针往前跳动的那一刻，

终于流出来了，

紧紧地抱着你，我感受到你的失落，

我只能给你一个轻轻的吻与拥抱，

希望它能安抚你那失落的心，

当你转身离开的那一刻，

我忍住眼泪，头也不回的往前走，

软弱的我并没有马上离开，

站在远远的角落看着将要开动的车子，

眼看车子开远了，我才继续我的路程，

我跟在车子的后头，一路的陪着你走，

眼泪还是不听话的流了出来。

只要心与心没有距离，那怕只有那么短暂的相聚。

加油！！！

see you soon...

LOVE <3333333333

another full house day for yesterday...
advertisment in news paper really bring us sales...
wondering the effect will last for how long...


tired and HUNGRY!!!!!!!
bryan and me had our lunch at 2pm,
then 5pm went for tea break,
ate pcs of bread and cup of coffee,
and guess wad...i had my 'dinner' midnite 1am...
goshhhh...i like going to die liao...
when i reach home at 10.35pm,
took psc of bread before going out for Max de bday celebration..

we were planning to eat at Friday Restaurant,
but it seem like too late when we reached there...
try Jack Place, Thai Thai, and also Bali Restaurant... ]=
ended up we ate at Hai Luo...
service and food both suck...
if i'm not in hungry and going to shut off soon,
i won be eating thier food..

i went home tgt with daddy and mummy,
brother and other go for clubbing...
hahah...they not clubbing at shop, hmmm...mean disco or pub...
but they went GENTING!!!!!!
and OMG they reach home this morning 7.30am...

ha, anw...i will be at Genting too...

mei....after blog tonite, must check all ur stuff
and dun forget your passport and bus ticket worh...

see you tml nite!!!!!!! ^^

wow, was a bored afternoon..
attended a hygen course for 3hours...
i was like ZZzzZZZ....
in fact, i had attended in Singapore,yet still need to attend again...
haiz....suffering!!!!
fireman, frank and yep came back from Thailand!!!
eeeyer...they went to xxxxxxxx......
yark!!!! frank got lots of love bite on his neck...
fireman told everyone in the restaurant what they did for the 2days 1night in Betong, Thailand...
hahahahaa....guys always!!!!!

i was finish work 7pm todae,
meeting yin fun, mei yee and ken for dinner...
they at 1st said dinner at Mid Valley, but when i went off from store,
they called and said dinner at Puchong Perdana Shabu-Shabu..

japanese style buffet steamboat...
OMG, i dun even know how it look like...
jus like eat at sake sushi, the food on the conveyer going round and round...
every single person with a pot of soup...
really hygenic,but lost fun on having steamboat...

we chat lots...laugh...
and we talk bout money not enough2...
well, make me think alots again...

is a great dinner time with them since long time ago...
i actually love to chat with them although sometime i might out of the topic...
yet still enjoying...

will it be too late that now then i realise,
friends and family are so important to me?

i hope it wasnt too late...

night people...

and japanese new fren of mine,
please tell me more bout you...^^

LOVE<333

mei, seeing u soon!!!! yeah!!!

i had pissed on myself yet now you make me pissed off again...
shd i blame myslef for not msg you for the pass 2days
or blame it on you?

you dun even ask me how am i these 2days...
yet i am the one who msg you and asked!!!!

you told me you not in a good mood to msg,
okie!!!!!!!!fine!!!!!!!!!!
as i not in a good mood to replying you too!!!!!!!!!!
jus forget it!!!!!!!!!!

just do watever you like, and i dun care anymore!!!!!!

just tired and tired!!!!!!!!!! GET LOST!!!!!!!!!!!

i might did something wrong,
and i am sorry if i did it...

rach, sorry for last nite...

went to SJMC this morning,
spend more than 5hours there,
and only 10 minutes needed...

bring home together with 21days derh ubat...
21days later another 5hours spending i guess...

jus now went to see my god father...
another type of ubat...
these more worse, need to continue for 3months...

perhaps everything will back to normal...

and YEAN!!!! thanks for the email...
thank you for helping me to do research...
i hope that it will helps me as well...

take care people...

LOVE you...

i did it again...
although i know is not good, but just cant help..

sorry...
is very tired to hide....

really.....
and really......

i just feeling like letting go.....

hey,this chee khong de bday cake!!!
todae is my BIG BIG day!!! YEAH!!!
Daddy, me, mommy and didi...
Er Yi...i look more handsome than korkor??
he making a wish...

hey,

todae mooncake festival worh...

中秋节快乐！！！

i din ever eat a pcs on moon cake this year...

ehhhmmm..dun feel like eating...

dun have those feeling to celebrate i shd said..

back to many years ago when still study in sec school,

all of us used to have a small gathering,

doing some steamboat, or BBQ...

way back to 20years ago,

we playing with candle...

boil the candle, fried the leaf wih those candle...

hahaha...even went to catch those longkang fish to fried together with cousin bro...

mee mee always called us samseng...

now a day everyone busy for working,

not even spending their time with family,

dun even mention bout friends...

this is the 1st time i celebrating moon cake festival with family after 4 years...

and is together with chee khong bday...

although i am tired after work, yet feel warm when staying with them...

yean, back soon...

i miss you much...daddy mummy and all of us are missing you badly...

is really good to staying with them..

and thanks for the called which far away from UK...

i know what shd i do...

mei, thanks for the message this morning,

it really makes my day...

dun worry, i know what i shd do and what i need to do...

7days more to see you!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE KHONG!!!



hey, clock pass 12am liao...
another day liao...14th sept, my lovely nephew's birthday...
wilson=my bro in law
max=my real blood brother
christine=my real blood sister
they came to my restaurant together with 2kiddo jus now
i was so supprise...i bought them 2 pieces of cake cos is chee khong birthday
and 22nd sept my brother birthday...haha, i feel like eating too
but....i din....rach, is choc mud cake leh...>.<


my mood in the morning is damn shitty,
rounding for an hour jus to get a parking,
ended up park damn far away from the shop i wanted to go
walk around 15min under the hot sun for thru and flow...
shit shit shit and SHIT!!!!!!!!!!

next tuesday,will be another shitty day for me too i think..
haha...i jus guess...who knows rite...


quite free in the afternoon,
yep ask me drove him to buy duck for lunch,
i was like >.<, why me?? petrol ex sia...
but still i went out with him...
cant get duck, and we bring back curry fish head...
after lunch,bryan look tired..
i suggest to him, eh...we go foot masage???
he O.o...can or not??
ask yep......ehmmmm, yep.......
lets go foot massage tgt lorh...
yep ^^, okie okie we go tgt...
but ended up only me and bryan...
hahah...eat snake for 1 hour...
shock sia...the massage damn nice...and refreshing to me...

the sifu doing my leg, bryan was siting beside me...
i told the sifu can do more harder,
bryan look at me, jus like challange me...
then he told the sifu same thing,
but he ended with pain...hahahah..
ops...bryan, i forget to tell you...
i aledi season for doing foot massage lerh...

i wondering how long i can hide from you
everytime i feel guilty when facing you
i dunno it will take how long for me
should i hold you tight or just let you go?
it might be no future for you and me if you choose to hold me in your arm...
tell me what i should do?

pissed off...
i hate myself...
just too useless to fight over, and i had lost and lose finally...

feel like letting go everything...
including myself...

Lord,teach me, guide me, and advice me...

i was freaky tired to holding myself all along
should i let go?or shd i stand strong and firm?

i dun even know how to face myself
yet my beloved....

would you tell me what i should do?

here come a fast blog, as i still in office,
i dun wan later people said i din update my blog..
haha..joking..


went for the 2nd CU yesterday,
4 little tiny hole on my arm...
they want me to drink a cup of glucose,
and it was very very very sweet till i feeling vomite..
my stomach feel suffering...
feel lonely and worried as well...
will you go there together with me if you re here?
lucky mee not with me,
i know meemee saw it and she was heart pain..

i din even went out with him yesterday although both of us are off.
freaky tired and not feeling well.
lunch with sister and she told me that
daddy and meemee were worried bout me
i know it and i feel guilty enough to face them,
but wad els i can do?

now mee everyday wake up early to cook for me
i bring food to work, as for my lunch and dinner,
seriously i miss sweet much...
but.....i need to really control...
argh!!!!!!!!!!!

todae work is so so...
yep not here, he went to Curve..
left with fireman and bryan...
realise that i cant control my temper toward bryan liao
maybe cos of he did the same mistake everytime...

kitchen staff was complaining
cheft was complaining too...
haix...bryan, tell me wad i can do to help you?

besides these, i notice that the staffs here,
no matter kitchen or floor staff,
they love me much...hmmmm...as to say they care me lots...
jus like when i working with u all...
being love de feeling really great!!!

i hope you all are being LOVE.....and you all are LOVED by me!!!!!

Happy Birthday Kathy!!!!!!!!!!!

hey girl, sorry cos cant make it to celebrate with you and join you in ur chalet...
anyway, have Fun and Fun...

and......dun skip class agian yarh!!!

miss and love <333333

There are those who pass like ships in the night.
Who meet for a moment, then sail out of sight with
never a backwards glance of regret;
folks we know briefly then quickly forget.
Then there are friends who sail together through quiet waters
and stromy weather helping each other through joy and through strife.
And they are the kind who give meaning to life...

joanne called me this morning,
she was sad...ber leave her...
4 years relationships...
ber din ever wanted to explain anything
and just leave joanne alone...

she cried to me...
sorry girl, sorry cos i am not beside you,
i shd have lend u my shoulder to cry on...
jus to far away..

jimmy called me just now...
and we had a nice talk...
before he called, he msg me...
this is what he send...
hey sis, come back to singapore soon..
yes, i will be leaving around october.i think it will be very long time for me to come back again. anyway brother really looking forward to meet sis before leaving.

Sorry jimmy boy, sis cant make it to go back by oct...
as we can still keep in touch thru email, msn and even msging...
send me ur number when u re there...
must keep in touch with me and rachel, dun forget bout us...
These what i had replied..

i am glad to have you all...
and seriously i really feel bliss...
the cares and loves that given by you
make me feel warm no matter where am i..
just feel great...i love you all, and of cos i miss you all...

i knock my kneecap while taking order...
damn pain until my tear almost came out...
PY will nag me whenever i hit my kneecap...
i miss the nag from PY...sound weird..haha
but dun think PY will know i really miss PY...
narh...forget bout it....

hey, i am wataru..nice to meet you!!

hey people, he is Wataru...

looking good?? cant imagine he study LAW!!!

finally salary in todae...

and i think that the reason why todae damn lots of customers...

WOW!!!!!! FULL HOUSE sia...

this is the 1st time....

i realiased that i am okie when i not eating...

ehmmm...not feeling tired i mean...

once i ate, especially afternnon tyme...

i will jus feel like hugging a pillow and sleep...

and ops...i ordered a pieces of french toast and found out

it will lots of honey and OMG...i cant exchange it for other...

shit!!!!!!! and lucky it was a busy dinner time,

i taken my lunch around 2pm,

and my dinner at 1am the next day...

and i suppose the glucose had gone??

clearing all the stupid month end paper work...

arranging again those filing system...

lots and messy...cleaning the manager room as well...

wondering should ask my boss to increase my salary after probation...

hahahhaaa....

cos he was asking me to go to The Curve (2nd outlet)

to settle for them too...i was like O.o

having so much fun jus now...

joking with yep...

playing around with staffs...

fun fun and fun....

HL msg me todae...

haha..she asking my photo...

she worry if i keep on diet will become MumMy soon...

she was so heartache to see me lost weight...

thanks girl...i will take care myself well...

take good care boys and girls...

ehmmm...nice cake,but cant eat =.=



HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIREMAN!!!!!! U ROCK!!!!!

supposed to be fresh after an OFF day

but it seem like......

i jus like a dead person when start work...

stress...cos of the stupid media...

fireman all the way reminding me...

fireman: darling, todae my birthday....

me: orh...okie...happy birthday...

fireman: darling,todae my birthday....where my present??

me: ehmmm...orh...happy birthday...present?? ah...later i go buy,k??

fireman: darling........u dun need to buy,jus give me a kit...

me:huh???wad kit????
then he show me wad is kit...

guess wad...kit = kiss....

me:OMG....no way!!!!!!!!!!!!later my bf knw, he wil upset...

fireman: nvm lah...jus 1 kit only....

me: NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then he jus walk away with dissapoinment...

poor fireman....sorry guy...i cant...

yep's face was damn black this morning...

but dunno which wire of him had short circuit...

he play joke with me during lunch crowd...

he make me laugh like crazy...

but all his joke is M18...

i realised that lots of staff there starting to call me darling...

OMG!!!!!

and 1 of them, mynmar chinese, calling me jie...

he make me feel like working with you all...

i will get their pic and upload other days...

and and and...Wataru!!!

he look more handsome after his hair cut....gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i went out to buy fireman a cake,

it was heavy rain....

of cos not only get him the cake, but collecting bandages for him as well...

he smile after he saw the cake,

he was so happy,he came to hug me...

then he dance on the stage...jus like a kid...

cant imagine he had married woth 2 kids...

of cos we all sang him a birthday song and cut cake...

i ate the cake at last force by them..

they dunno my problem..

anw,i jus took a small piece..shd not have prob i think..

some songs make me think of somebody...

In Love with you...make me thinking of PY

Ai Ni Deng Yu Ai Zi Ji...make me thinking of HL

Right Here Waiting...make me thinking of WY

A Shoulder to Cry On...make me thining of Bazid, Lisa, Joanne and Jean

The Day you Went Away...make me thinking of Rachel

Nan ren Nu ren...make me thinking of Kathy

All My Life...make me thinking of Juliana

in fact i like these songs much...

lots of memories floating around...

jus misssssssss you all much... <333333

make by mashmallow...argh!!!cant eat ]=

i like totally drained out...

although today off,yet still feeling tired....

jus cant explain....

reliased that now a day even if i off,

i rather then i was working,

at least i won get to see those temptated food...

argh...lots of dessert, cakes....

watch 4bia with S.W

he damn noisy...

i rather watch with rachel...

i like the story,will be more fun if ish watch with you...haha...

my hp non stop even i off,
it seem like McD life back again...
bryan called me many times...
bout ordering, stock, wrong order...
argh......and the best part,he din not submit the punch card to office!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!this month de salary....
can die liao......

my boss,mr.yep ask him go send again to office,
ended up accident and dunno where is him now...
i only know he was safe, go police station report,
then after that dunno the way back to store...
poor bryan...yep was very pissed off with him...
hope that he have a good rest tml..

people...
i am going off....
wish me luck as tml media will come to my restaurant for interview...
of cos not with me, but with my big boSS...

@**LoVe^JH^4eVeR**@ JiaHui, this for YOU!! JIA YOU!!!

freaking busy and tired...
need to do 2 outlet de month end report...
ton of paper work to complete by 5th...
narh, lucky i did it b4 when i in McD...
if not, just like fireman always said: "DIE liao"...

bryan scolded by me this early morning,
i seldom scold people,u all knew it...
this poor guy had paid for 70 bucks within these 2days,
settle paymeny without deducting voucher amount...
tot he will learnt after the 1st time,yet today did it again...
he extended Wataru till closing last nite which was a Public Holiday,double of his pay...
guess how much his pay for yesterday?RM120!!!!!!
OMG!!!and he din ever settle the Zreport!!!

sometime look at him,
just recalling myself when i was a new bird in this F&B line,
i took 4years to learn, but he only have 4 months...
i dunno whether can he survive...
i wanted to help him,
but seem like very difficult...
jia you barh,bryan...

Kexin called me jus now...
informing me she geting marry coming Oct...
25th Oct...eh...2 days after her wedding, my big day!!
happy and feel great to get the news...
CH will be going,Kexin ask me if i mind...
why shd i? Kexin ish the lady of that night,
she is the one who talking...
narh, jus dun care...i still have others there that night..
ehmmm...i shd on diet then...
if not cant wear my dress lerh...or maybe i jus need to get another dress..
hahaha..in fact the dress was too big for me now...

Yinfun marry coming Nov,
Christine marry coming Dec,
OMG!!!!!!!!!!
my pocket empty again....
hahahahhahhaha......

maybe cos of you make me feel tired...
maybe cos of you make me cant really control my temper...
when will you leave me?
sweet taste like ???
i now dun even know...
tasteless...........................
jus tell me when will you leave me alone!!!!!

@***LoVe^R^4eVeR***@

wondering why u can guess it so easily...
haha..anyway,you re right....
looking forward for month of DEC...
are you?or jus ak??
hahahahahahahhhhh....

love yarh!!!!!