yuppie....

last day in pepper lunch...

7.30pm....chapter close.....

16days more will start a brand new chapter...

wish me luck sias...

only left with 3 days in Singapore..

wow...will be damn busy for me i think...

need to pack up my stuff, meeting all my good / best frens..

all the aunty who love me when working together...

i will miss you all badly...

really i swear!!!!

jus dunno how to discripe

you know i won be fang xin at all

but wad els i can say?

i will still be somewhere to protect u...jus far away...

i will bring all ur sad and unhappy burden away from you

never return it to you and i swear...

aku akan berdoa demi kebahagian mu...

i was having so much FUN on 26th

Thanks to all my beloved bro and sis...

i really LOVE you all much...

cycling for 2hours...

this is the 1st time i cycling 2hours non-stop in my life...

is damn tired, but fun...relax...

i like to be with them...

they make me feel comfortable...

they make me feel happy and relax...

i just love to be with them...

28th...

after 2days off,

back to work again...

reach Funan by 927am...

wow..almost late...

get shock when i saw Bazid with a new staff standing in front of the stall

and waiting for me...

OooOOOoooo.......

narh, dun worry...bazid is a very nice guy...

he say nothing but jus introduce the new staff to me...

her name ish josephine...

twins...and i saw her sister at Central...jus like photocopy of josephine and her name Joanne...

what tw said last nite was totally not applicable on me today...

i was totally EECC for today..4staffs at lunch time...

that was amaging...cant believe right?

josephine, 1st day...train her for opening...

kim fu, full time cast from Bugis, 1st day at Funan...he doing kitchen..

and uncle Barry was there too...

OMG!!!!!!! i really EECC....

went to china town to meet my real blood aunty...

tot to eat yong tau foo for dinner,

but was late there and yong tau foo sold out!!!!

my aunty and cousin brother started their closing sia...

and now i am home...

oh ya...i cut my hair...

just cant take it anymore...

like lion de hair sia...

No no...i dun wan...

short and fresh, i love it...

sorry dear,

really cant take long hair...

maybe will try to keep in when back...

maafkan saya...

aku rindu pada mu....

5days...

i was wondering should i blog today...

haha...finally...

today supposed to work at 12pm, but i need to go office at beach road by 10am this morning

haix...cant sleep more...

yup, bout that stupid case again...

nothing much they ask...

pooja went in 1st, 45-60mins later my turn...

i fall asleep sia...

haha...

heavy rain after my turn,

wak back to Funan, by the time i reach, my pants WET...

argh!!!!!

nothing much happen today..

yeah, get to see yong chuan today...

today will be the last meet for both of us..

narh, he was cute....

ehs....sleeply sia...

Good nite!!!

7days...

THANK YOU JIA HUI & SUAN LING<333

the mushroom head is CUTE...

hahahhh....i wanted to buy this long time ago...

but...hahah...thank you...

This take from the note that Jia Hui wrote for me today :

I really hope that you have a better future in KL rathe than here. I know you being in Singapore isn't happy cos lots of thing happened...

We love you lots...

Really hope that you can make it great there and hope that everything there will be smooth-sailing.

Thank's jie, for being with me & us in Singapore during this period.

We LOVE you & most Importantly, I LOVE YOU too...

EDITED by ME!!! hahaha...

in fact i was happy in Singapore but not in PL...

I LOVE YOU ALL too....

i now freaking TIRED and SLEEPLY too...

thanks JU and Lionel having dinner together with me...

6days coming soon....

8days....

i starring at the calender counting the days...

dunno what to blog...

i sleep less than 5 hours last 2days,

i suppose to be very tired and sleepy,

yarh, it only come to me during work...

dun feel like going to sleep when reach home...

seen like i wan myself to be awake and enjoy the time in Singapore??

sound weird...hahaha...

hmmmm...i think that for today...

opsss...7days...

thank you for everything..

LOVE YOU!!! <333

9days...

我的心情越来越沉重。好沉重！！！

really complicated...

look at peoples surrounding me,

Ju- you consider an adult, try to think like an adult. sometimes, something happened and you might not able to walk thru by yourselve, ask for help from the one who LOVED you forever and ever...perhaps that you know who are the person which LOVE you the most....

Kathy- i know you still young, way still long for you to walk thru...i can say that you know how and what to do for the next step...you took my advise and had change your attitude toward working..i really glad to see that, keep it up girl...

BOTH of you girls, you are so close with me since i step into RVM...
more than 1 year we work together...
i saw you grow...and i really happy that i saw you grow...

Lionel- i know you only during the 1st IT show when Ju and you step into PL.. i dunno much bout you...but i know you can really take good care of her...i meant it and i need you to do so...she sensitive enough toward everything...hold her hand and walk thru with her together...dun let go!!!!

Desmond- you are my 1st brother in Mcd, helpful..never say NO when i need help..thank you...i need no worry bout Kathy cause i know that you will taking over me to look after her...and please, dun let go too...no matter what....

BOTH of you guys, please and please really taking good care of my 2 sisters...althought both of you cant talk to each other..yet....i need your help....

Rachel- you keep lots of thing inside your heart..and you re the one i most worry...i glad that somedays i can manage to make you smile..having fun, dessert, movie...i will always remember when working with you in Suntec.. Open up the lock which inside your heart, the space was jus too small for you to keep those unhappy, why not jus fill your heart with happiness??

Tong Wai- yup!! super nice brother of mine in Suntec, jus wondering why you and me will so close and we jus know each other around 3-4 months...jus so click...be yourselve...happy and no worry...dun only make people surrounding you smile and happy but you MUST smile and happy...hey, i know you understand what i trying to say...

LOOKING FORWARD 26th JULY...

HAVING FUN WITH ALL OF YOU...

opsss....Tong Wai, we will go TAKA to find you after that...
i wan my UNAGI with fried EGG before i leave...
ehmmm...and i miss Salmon Cream Pasta too.....

i miss Jia Hui...emmm..YOU!! Jia Hui...i remember my promise to you and i will try my VERY VERY VERY best to come back and celebrate your Bday coming Oct,ok?? and BE HAPPY and SMILE...you look sweet when smile.. =]

Jimmy, Jia Min, Wei Ling, Irene, Minnie, Wei Lip, Allen, Uncle Barry, Annie, Samson, Wai Wai, Jean, Bazid, Evelyn, Pooja, and lots of my friends in Singapore...I WILL MISS YOU ALL...
*some of them might not like me, yet...still friend..*

love me? 9days

2nd day of my MC...
i slept till 11am then wake up...
took my medicine after breakfast then online watch movie...
fall aslept half way...the stupid medicine make me sleep for the whole day sia...

rachel called me around 245pm...
she finished her thing le..
haha...okok,finally can go out walk walk...
i was like idiot staying at home and just slep...
i know you all worry as i MC yet still going out, somemore to Funan..
i just need some fresh air..and i miss kathy tat's y i went back to funan...
Richard- 2nd in-charge of food junction at Funan...
he asked me when saw me eating, eh, karen you feel better? you still look pile...
i was like shock...i dun really like to talk to this guy...cos he look...hais, jus dunno how to discribe...but feel warm when he send me regards, better than other so call co-workers...

then we go pasir ris to find something for rachel de gf -- HX...
get rings...ehmmmm...nice but bit EX...
shd ask kathy and Ju to get 1 too...yarh..sisters forever...
then going home...
drop by punggol, go pasar malam to get my dinner...
raining...yarh...din bring umbrella...
hais...

wondering how many days more i can really enjoy with all of you...
haha...love to be with you too... @>----

12days left...

whole body aching when wake up this morning...

look at the clock 845am...

OH SHIT....opening...Fxxx...Late le...

Suddenly realize that today is Friday...I OFF...shd say MC...haha

wad the.....too stress le lah...

i just look like panda now!!!

go see doctor b4 breakfast,

doctor say i having light fever, and flu...

he gave me 2days MC ask me to rest well at home...

he said i overload le...

i told the doctor i had work for 16days non-stop...

he like shocked sia...

hais...work tired, slack at home then i feel bored...

look at those medicine....really scary...

i miss you!!!

13days left

ish my luck to have you all to supporting me...

or els my life will be more miserable...

and i can't even stand till end of july...

tony go, bazid take over...

shd be happy, yet today irene from office called and say: funan now still with suntec,

only will take over by central after 27th...

OMG!!!! wondering my off day for next week...i had been 2 weeks NO OFF day le..

hais...fall sick again...

continueous work for 16days...

yet tmr ask me back for half day...

i won go back to work...

just hack care...just minus my $100...I DUN CARE

i damn fxxxing sick yet angry now!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just stop pushing me....

is almost my limit!!!!!!!!!!

dun force me............

14days left

i cried...while talking to jean just now at food court...
she always know my weak point, and always attacked it and Fxxxing pain...

i still rmb the 1st month in this pcs of land...
i cried...cos i was bully by those senior mgr in McD...

and now, this the last month i in this pcs of land,
yet i cried...i dunno how many times i had cried...

ET, i really wan to know why?why must you do this to me and r?

i have no more strength...i had collapsed again today!!!
are you happy to see this???
i had apologize for what i had done,
yet still you hurting people around me...
what the Fxxx you wan actually??

sorry......
i shdnt pull you in agian...
i really dun know she will attack you again after i apologize...
why i kept repeating this stupid mistake that jean had mention to me many times??
what the hell is going on??


JUST PUT WHATEVER UNHAPPY AND BLAME ON ME...
I will just carry this stupid SHIT for another 16days...
and you will have no more excuse to attack the peoples that i loved...

wow...
ikeno, mandy, and tony came down at the same time...
i using my break time to blog...
damn tired....look at my punch card, almost full with those number...
clock in - clock out....
hahaha....

nope...i din bring my lappie...using allen lappie...
haha..he was thinking to watch movie during his break time, but now dun think so...

i think i need a foot massage,
might going down to AMK...

really need a break....

to be continue

i had totally PISSED OFF with you!!!!
why cant you just LEAVE ME ALONE????
i had hidden myself at a side and care NO MORE bout anything happen at ur place,
why cant you just let me go and stop making nonsense???

tell me what ish standard???
do you think you have????
look at the people who work with you closely....
look at their so called standard!!!!!

you have thousand of reasons to side them...
you have thousand of excuses to protect them...
have you ever think that something goes wrong and need your attention to FIXED it??
yarh...you can put the blame on me...
you can PUT THE BLAME ON ME!!!!!!!!!

lets me tell you what...
i won be easily pull down by you...
should you yourself to find out what the hell is going on....
dun ask me put on ur shoes if you never stand on my side and think what i am thinking!!!!!

i had gone thru all this so called STRESS after promote...
i am glad that i can handle it well cos my people giving me support...
you can have my support, in fact i was supporting....

DONT EVER ATTACK THE PEOPLE AROUND ME....
anything that you feel pissed off on me, not happy then straight to me!!!!!!
dun attack the peoples i LOVED the MOST......

i keep myself quiet, doent mean that i AGREED what you had done...
i have my own LIMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16days...i just want this 16days to be PEACE....

should our life just like desserts? sweet and only sweet??

yarh, this world full with diff type of people, diff
type of thinking...

of course we all having diff point of
view...

some might say good..

some say NO...

some say go go go for
it...

some say just think before u take
action..

but final decision making by WHO?

is YOU and only YOU know how to play the game of you
life!!!

the path of the way we might have a chance to
fall down,

but doesnt mean that once you fall, forever you
lose...

stand up agian, go for it...go for the thing that you
think is worth it for you..

we always know how to comfort ppl down, but not
ourselve...

why? why just cant?

hahahhaha....

will it be a good question to answer?

dear...u think you can do
it?

13th July

i was shock to see you with a pair of swollen eyes...
heart pain...
i dunno wat make you cry untill i read ur blog...
i can only say sorry for what had happen...

i finally see you smile le...
thanks to the alcoholic drinks...
hahah...lucky i have some carton video in my handphone,
wondering it can make you laught...
YUP...they DID it...

we all worry bout you...
dunno if you know it...
please dun hide your emotions deep into your heart,
it will keep hurting and hurting you non-stop...

CRY it LOUND if really need...
we cried not only when we happy, or sad...
we cried for release our stress...

i will try my best to be there for you...

i miss you dear...

18 days left...

ops...i missed for 2days blog...



HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!! TONG WAI...

haha...STRANGER!!! with Rachel, we go for this movie...
Damn scary, who have heart attack?dun go for it...
both of us was shocked on the scene that the lady was hiding in the closet...go find out more..


yup...happily enjoy for yesterday nite in K Box...
bought Tong Wai a cake together with rachel...
haha....we rush here and there and wanted to get him a present but ended up....with nothing...
we all having a great and FUN night...


Jean, XZ, Allen, Minnie, Rachel and me of cos...
we celebrated TW birthday in a damn BIG ROOM...
hahaha...we sing...nope nope...should say SHOUTING!!!
jean have a damn lound voice sia...
hahahh...1s time see XZ , Allen and TW sing...
XZ, u look very PRO when singing...cute^^
TW, i din even heard your voice...
MINNIE, i only heard when u sing that Hokkien Song...hahah...and when u working...
JEAN, dont shout lots...i cant even catch up...
ALLEN, haha...y must everytime ask me to buddy you?be confident!!!
RACHEL, sorry cos cant find you the song that you want...and also the Xin Tai Ruan..haha


wad the...we chasing each other in the room...
so just imagine how big is the room...
hahaha...

ops...somthing happen tat nite...
TW kissed by ALLEN!!!!!
hahahahhh....all the girls kissed TW except Jean...
11th July, the date that i won forget...
i realy ENJOY and have FUN...


reach home around 315am....
cant sleep, maybe too happy...


almost late to work....
receive msg from Rachel this morning,
she sound pissed off...
yarh, if for me i sure come out with the F word sia...
but anyway, i knw this girl, she will just smile back after few minute or lesser than that...
hahah...


i bought her something during my break time...
hahaahhh...mei, actually i ended my shift 9pm...
damn busy and tired today...working just like a crab...
blur..i was pissed of this afternoon after allen left..
lots of customers, untill no more meat and last minute cut...
argh....cant let yadarna work alone..my kitchen was up side down after i come back from break..
pissed...


yup..meeting rachel, tw, kathy and minnie b4 going home..
hahahaa...we talking crap again..

tired but enjoyed...^^

18days left

sometimes i should not day dream...
sometimes i should not talk nonsense...

believe in DREAM WILL COME TRUE???
am i??
i should pray hard instead...
pray hard that nothing will happen to me...
pray hard that everyone who loves me will be protected...
and pray hard that i will be always happy...
YARH!!!! I WILL....and SURE I WILL....

what i want?what i need??
FUN and FUN and FUN!!!!!!!!
hahahhahahahaa........
ENJOY and ENJOY and ENJOY!!!!!

yeah.....yeah....



rachel, kathy, juliana, tong wai, minnie, allen, wei lip, da xiong, jia hui, jimmy, wei ling, jia min, irene, nurul, bobo?? hahahaha....I LOVE YOU all..

21days left...

busy and tiring of doing order...
tw, u re right!!! i should enjoying when at STC...
now??!! haix...i every morning need to be in the kitchen and chiong for LUNCH peak...
hahahahhahahhh....what the hell sia....

11th July coming le leh...
don tell me you will not turn up...
MUST COME!!!!!!!!!!!!
we have not much time to talk crap le....so
must come!!!!!!!!

yarh..my schedule been adjusted again...
tmr should work with kathy,but ended up change to opening agian...
everyday wake up 730am...
tiring de loh....

what to do?!!?
NO CHOICE....hahahahah
missed minnie sia....
life in Funan really getting bored and bored...
MINNIE COME BACK!!!!

leaning lots at Funan too...
like to listen to uncle Barry's talk...
he like to tell me bout his story...
he traveled the whole world almost...
he shared with me his life story...
learning thru his story....

yupp!!! friday is coming...
looking forward to meet you all up for FUN...
i need to have FUN!!!!!!
to destress myself shd say it this way...

i got kinda of feeling that she dun like me...
i got kinda of feeling that she dun lke you to close with me...
yarh....maybe i think too much instead...
just maybe....

22days left...

another tiring day!!!
yup!!!but today punch out on time...
kathy was working closing with allen...

tong wai was there with me today...
he came down after finished his work and chat with me...
we drink...afer that meeting a friend for dinner...

finally today something happen that can cheer me up...
yup!!! i get next week schedul, all opening and till 5pm only...
FRIDAY...yeah...FRIDAY OFF!!!!!!!!!!
really hope that NO change of schedule...
love Tony sia.....hahahhahahahh.....

yarh...have a goodtalk with tong wai just now...
feeling better now....
i need to thanks somebody here...

thank you rachel for being my mei mei and all the way stand beside me,
thank you t.wai for being my bro and all the way lending me his listening ears,
thank you kathy for being my mei mei and all the way supporting me,
thank you juliana for being my mei mei and all the way helpng me when i needed,
thank you jia hui for being my mei mei and all the way comforting me when i was down...
thank you desmond for being my bro and take care of me and somebody nicely... (edited,cos missed out)
and thank you s.w for being my dear and loving me, understanding me so much...

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

23days left...

今 天 的 心 情 就 想 今 天 的 天 气 一 样 的 灰 。。。

i dunno wat happen to me...
i cant cheer myself up...

just tired...and really tired...
530pm, schedule ended...
punch out 930pm...
the world of funan just like hell...

i feel damn sick on the schedule...
really sick!!!!!

i miss you...
and i really miss you...
but i cant tell you thru my mouth...
i cant even speak up...
useless...

i getting useless and useless...
helpness too...

24days left...

ARGH!!!! TIRED!!!!!!!!!!
i hate 6th July...
i hate this date since 2 years ago...
just hate!!!!!!!

i get my next week schedule...
what the hell...i go NO off day...Not even a HALF day shift...
i been having a damn bad mood since morning after receiving a call...
yet become worse after getting to know my schedule...
not even a word can descripe my feeling now...
feel like crying...

i miss my mum and my dad...
i miss my sisters and brother...
they always be with me whenever i feel sad...
althought i never tell a single word,
but they know how to comfort me down...

dear...i dun wan to stay here no more...
i wanted to be back as soon as possible...
i feel helpness.....
HELPNESS............................

25days left

YUPPIE!!!!!!! spending the whole day going out with Rachel...

meeting her at HGM 11am...WOW!!!food festival...lots of food and also dessert sia...

we go to ChinaTown to check out for the HK trip after breakfast...

and to VIVO!!!!

WANTED!! the movie that we watch today...

hmmmm....story line not bad...but i feel bit bored till the end of story...

wee...go CANDY EMPIRE...lots of candy sia...

hmmm...then went down to ISETAN...and TAKA...

to see XZ and jean at ISETAN...

to see TW and wai wai at TAKA...

i was thinking to see her too...

but just dun feel comfortable to do so...

just kind of feeling that still not let go yet...

complicated...

haixx...

minus a day more...

anyone counting down the day for me?

26days left...

OMG!!!HUGE BENKO!!!!

YUMMY!!!! UNAGI with fried Egg...

this is the BIGGEST HUG i received last nite...

thanks rachel girl!!! really touched...

Hahahaaa....today half day work...ended shift 130pm...

yup!!!go back to suntec with rachel,and also bought jia hui mei mei box of ICE-CREAM!!!

and yarh...we having our UNAGI meal there....

hahah...my UNAGI with Egg was nice...ehs...Jimmy did it sia...

i LOVE it so much...

The moment step back to Suntec, feeling very weird...

people was very cold...never feel warm in outlet...

walk into kitchen, no reply after greating except eve...

poo saw me like invisible...hahahhaaa....never mind...i going back not for her sake...

watever larh....yup...

evelyn look cute in blue shirt..

and she had taken my letter...

while waiting for Jimmy,

we go shopping...window's type sia...

hahahhahahaa....

walking around to look for something we wanted to have it together...

fail at the end...

yeah...finally i get to eat fish n co de hot fudge brownie...

Jimmy, rach, and me....

ish nice but too sweet......yarh, of cos sweet....

cos eating with rach and jimmy leh...

i love to go out with u...

i have kinda of feeling that enjoying althought i was tired...

i will miss these days we being together and we were so close!!!

really...and i meant it...

can tell me how to make you feel better?

and really i will try my best to make it up...

just to ensure you are happy always...

i love to see you smile...

i love to see you...

i will miss your smile....

and i will miss.............

wee!!! allen is back...

haha...i finally can go off le...

but just happy for a while only...

cos he will be transfer back to STC...

my life will be suck in Funan without allen and minnie...

dunno Tony will send who to Funan sia...

YUP!!!going back to STC tmr...

narh...not to work, but to send resignation letter and clear my locker...

and to eat UNAGI...yeah yeah...with Rabbit...

looking forward...

i always looking forward to see u...

i really miss you lots...

really.........

and i will do whatever to protect you...no matter how far our distance is...
and i meant it..

just to love you...

just to miss you...

finally today can reach home b4 midnight...
thank you jia hui for helping me...
if not,haha...another full shift day for me...
thanks and love you much...^^

non stop working for 3 days 9.30am to 10pm...
everyday wake up 7am plus and reach home at midnight...
and today i spend $28 for cab...cos i overslept...
yarh...rabbit did called me and wake me up...
but i fall back to sleep again as i really really tired out...

Funan will take over by Tony,
dunno how my life there...
sad sia...
duno whether still can off on 26th and 27th...
i really really need the 2 days off!!!!!!

i really miss you...
don't you know?
my heart really pain...
really pain.............

i miss lots of ppl....
they all just suddenly appeared in my mind...
McDonald's crews...
Mummy Chitra..
Mummy Raidah...
Aunty Ah Kim (ah ma)...
Aunty Ah Leng...
and my Gan Mama...Kum Yee...
I miss them alots...
i will need to arrange a off day to meet them up b4 i go back...

just miss you so much...
just love you so much...