朋友的定义是什么？

what a suck day...

tot everything is fine and smooth...

but at the end of my shift there SHIT again...

can that stupid guy stop giving me problem ??

i was too kind to him izit??

he came far away jus for money...

i knew it cos i had been like him b4...

but kind to him izit mean tat i treat myself damn cruel???

i had stop thinking bout xb and joan de issue..

but as for kay...

i still dunno wad to do...

i know she still care bout ur frenship...

but she chosse silent when facing me...

either me...

i really tired....

i need a break!!!!!!!!!!

finally let out..
finally get the true..
and finally things goes fine...

and and and finally i knw the answer...
the answer really comfort me...
and it really did it...

and rachel,
thanks......

我在说服自己别放在心上
我在尝试。。。

左右为难的那首歌，
在我脑海中荡漾着。。。

别叫我放手，
因为我不会轻易放手，
除非。。。
对方先放弃。。。

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左手寫他　右手寫著愛
緊握的雙手　模糊的悲哀
我的決定　會有怎樣的傷害
面對著愛人跟朋友　哪一個我該放開
一邊是友情　一邊是愛情　左右的不是　為難了自己
是為你想吧　該為她想吧　愛雖然已不可自拔
裝作不在意的你　如何面對

原来他所提及的笨蛋指的是xb，

原来一开始他就看上xb，

原来我的直觉是对的。

原来一切一切的真相，

是那么的残忍。

我宁可什么都不懂，

也许我会更好过。。。

原来脑袋的转动可以令人那么的痛苦，

原来休息的信念可以那么的强，

如果我的脑袋可以随着我休息的时刻，停止转动，

那该多好！

但看来似乎有些特定的难度，

因为不管我休息的信念多么的强，

我脑袋的转动度并没有因它而慢下或停止。

我很累，真的很累。。。

我要好好地休息。。。。。。

烦恼，请你暂时离我而去，让我好好地休息，

拜托你。。。

Station 1 Equine Park,

the outlet name of mine...

this outlet run by 4 important ppl...

outlet mgr, chef, floor supervisor and bar supervisor...

and we re pround to say that...

Equine Park, never had an single issue in our operation...

all 3 of the deprtment was great in team work...

not even bosses say so...

those singer who came to our outlet for performance,

they agreed too...

it was a great motivation for me and my sfaffs...

but....

management are planning to form a support team...

and my big bro chef being selected...

i should be happy, but i will be sad...

perhaps i can really get thru...

well now left with me....

i will be battle alone again...

but well, i still have my best team with me all the time!!!

will u be with me?

i should had blog these last night,

but when i reached home was another day...

well, doesnt matter...

i realise that Station 1 was a nice place for me...

a nice place for me to meet back some old friends...

even my primary school teachers, and principal...

what a wonderful feeling...

and i really like it...

i miss xb...what a suck sunday... )=

went for moive todae with xb..

Harry Porter...

mayb cos of the mising part for the last 2 episods...

i seem like bit blur...

anyway, i still enjoy it very much..

having breakfast at Old Town before movie start...

tot wanna have a short shopping after movie...but not enough time

well, i need to get a pair of sport shoes...

too bad...dun get to buy it...

i having a great time todae...

but... tired...cos mens... )=

i was in a terribble mood todae..

sort feeling like idiot...

i cant even handle a Nepalish...

wth...

he was supposed out from the outlet and to another outlet of cos

but jus a call to stop these all happen from real..

khairul said he cant be transfer out

reason?? my outlet had paid all his levy and other fee...

and cos of this stupid reason i need to bare with this prevert??????

kay's problem let me headache as well

i wanted to help but seem likes never work out..

well, let it be...

staff started to apply leave...

another problem coming soon..

wish me luck... >.<

8th july,

a special day of mine...

hope it can be memorize every year...<3

i had no time all the way till todae...

finally can write something here...

it was a tiring day...

wking time make me feel like hell...

was wking 6pm to 3am yesterday,yet home at 5am

after calling xb, slp at 530am...

and guess wad...waking myself by using own alarm, and morning call from xb...

still almost late for wk...

of cos larh, wking 12pm todae leh...

slp only few hours...

and it come again...

need daddy's help again...

but is damn pain...

especially my back and arm...

like wanna send me to hell...

virus leaving tmr...

he was a great asst of mine,

although just manage to wk tgt for 1.5months

but we knw each other well..

hope that he can really make it for what he want...

and holly shit...

suddenly 1 shot i down of 3 staffs...

and my shift will become bloody hell again..

and of cos daddy and mummy will nag...

and also Rachel and Jocelyn too..

i thik xb also... >.<

well,

i need to get prepared...

to face another challange..

Khairul- my AM...

he came down todae...

to download us some information...

perhaps i won forget to brief them...

if not...

god bless me...

oh well, people..

i think i shd borrow tw's words...

a Rojak entry for todae...

hope you won mind...

and i started to miss you...

will you feel it??

11th July...

Happy Birthday Mr.See Tong Wai!!!~~~~

damn fast, another year..

i still rmb last year we went karaoke tgt..

sorry for not celebreating with u...

anyway..do enjoy!!!!

something that not suppose to happen

finally come..

my heart like fucking pain..

speechless...

if it can stop beating, it will helps..