i hate this kinda of feeling...
4 years ago, when i went to Singapore for my job...
25th May 2004
my family members send me to bus ternimal, my friends, cousin sisters...they all were there...
my heart was aching after board the bus, and i was cried afthe the bus moved...

and today,
5th Aug 2008...
i back to Malaysia from Singapore...
planning to move early in the morning after breakfast...
Ning Ling cried last nite, and i had promised her to wait till she back from class...
meeting Rachel, TongWai for breakfast together with BF...
we are all laughing and having our smiling face in front of each other...
even BF know that i was sad...
went home after breakfast and clear for the last round to wait for Ning LIng back from class...
lying on my bed, jus to feel the 1 last time with my soft and nice bed...
Rachel said the same thing..
but too bad i cant bring it back...

after Ning Ling back, we continue till 2pm..
TW and BF bring all those stuff down and prepared for loading...
i was all the way controlling...
till finish loading, we started the car and we left...
on the way send Rachel back,
i silent....
send rachel till door step..
she gave me a hug warm hugs before i left...

i no longer control my tear afthe the hug...
my tear came out straight away after board BF car...
untill JB custom...

i stopped!!!
it was so difficult for me to stop crying...
BF make me cry again!!
guess wad he said...
'Dear, look!!!! opposite is Singapore, the pcs of land that we just cross over!!!!!'
wad the xxxx.......

i today really cried out like shit....

i missed you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*betapa susah aku memperhentikan air mata mu...
tak sampai hati nak biarkan mu nangis lagi...
maafkan aku kalau aku tak jadi nak temankan mu...
tapi mu selalunya dalam hati aku...*

another phase for u to find out..

i know is hurt...
sorry for hurting u...in fact i dun wish this to happen...
really dun want this to be happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cos i am HURT too!!!!!!!!!