23th dec,

wasnt a good day after the meeting...
smthg like really went wrong...
make me freaky scared..honestly i really scared...
2008, is a damn fcking BAD year for me...
from starting of the year until now...
nothing good happens on me yet all those BAD counts me in...

Bryan was asked to leave by company,
due to the stupid World Wide financial crisis...
i dunno why the company wan to make such decision...
they know that now very difficult to find a job outside the world...
but still they making ppl jobless...

CNY coming near, i dunno how Bryan going to face his family
maybe for him wasnt a big deal,
cos he wasnt hapy working in this restaurant...
but it really makes me think a lots...

things happen a years back,
i was trying to forget and still not...
i had started to loss confident in this job...
insecure...insecure...and insecure...
but, i cant lose the job...

what i can do?
and i will be going back to JAYA ONE...
and full shift everyday...
and i dunno how long more for them to confirm me...
and i dunno what will going to happen...
and i can tell you tat i wanst sleep well at all...

AND I DUNWAN TO THINK ANYMORE NOW...
AND JUS LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS FRIDAY...FRIDAY...
AND I WILL SEE THEM...SEE ALL MY SISTERS N BROTHERS...

i seriously losing faith...
dun feel like contacting you,
dun feel like seeing you,
even dun feel like replying your msg either...

sorry