today's blog is for juliana and kathy.

Juliana,
you re the eldest girl at home if i not wrong,
so which mean same as me...
i advise u to read on my story...
of cos kathy, i will need u to read on too...

i am a eldest sister in a family of 5 siblings
i had to do housework everyday before school
and even after school...even i sitting for my N lvl, O lvl, even final exam in poly
for ? years....lost count...
every time, anything goes wrong,
i am the 1st person kana scold...
i hate my brother and sisters alots...
i hate them why every time they did thing wrong,
mother won scold them, but always only me, me and me!!!!!!!
mother bias...even my father...i hate this family lots and jus like wad u feel now...

everyday i quarrel with my sisters,
my brother and sisters hate me lots too...
i never allowed them to touch my thing,
not even a pcs of paper...

i ran out from home 1 day
i sit at a garden not far away from my house,
i looking at those kiddo with their family...
wow...they are so happy...but why not me?
getting late...last time not so advance,
no hand phone..mother started finding me up and down...
and she found me with tear...
i was home.........

few days later, mother scolded me again cos brother falls down while playing ,
i was so angry and i fight back...
i shouted so loud to my mum,
i scolded her bias...she stop and look at me,
keep repeating wad i had say... and ask me why..
i told her everything...and i regret wad i had done...
MY MOM CRY IN FRONT OF ME...
and she ran away from home,
never came back for 2days..............

the 2days for me like hell...
i need to take care of other, yet i need to cook,
i need to wash cloth, do this do that...
and i finally know why always i am the one who need to take these...

not easy to be a eldest bro or sis in a family..
everything that parents want us to do,
parents scolded us, is jus because they LOVE us so much...
and because u re the eldest, u shd had set a good example for ur brother and sister...
we re carrying lots of responsibility,
looking back those thing that you had done,
look at ur brother and sister now,
they might doing wad u had did it b4...

i am not saying who right, who wrong...
i jus wan and hope you wll think and think it again...

if one day u say,
jie, u bias! i will give u a good question...
tell me how to bias a people?
and.....
if i bias, why shd i still concern bout you?

爱，父母对长大后的孩子永远开不了口。
爱，对长大以后的孩子而言更难以开口。
爱，与兄弟姐妹之间的联系是坚韧无比。
爱，对朋友们的呵护与关怀是无可质疑。