戴佩妮-野蔷薇大马演唱会2010，

我人生中的第一场正式持票入场的演唱会，

震撼感动的序幕，有一股令我流泪的冲动，

静静的看着序幕时的她，（突然觉得她跟欧宣很像）

看到了她对这演唱会的热诚与期待，

也看到了她的坚持与执著，

我个人对戴佩妮的认识，

其实就只有：你要的爱，防空洞，两难。。。

但是经过了这场演唱会，

我对她有了更多的认识，不只是她的歌，

尤其她的坚持与执著。。。

现场的气氛high到顶点，

少不了烟火的助兴，

嘉宾阵容有：方炯宾，陈家凯，

舞台设计独特，合作无间的工作人员，

歌迷朋友给予的掌声与欢呼声，

两次的encore （虽然我错失了最后的那段），

可是真的还令我大开眼界，

当然身边有个心爱的陪伴着，

感觉真的很好。。。

这场演唱会，真的值得！！

Happy Birthday 'Ah Ma' Yin Fun...^^

2nd Jan...

day out with my 'old friends'...

wow, fantastic nite...

and and and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 'AH MA'

started a year with lots of joy and fun...

thanks girls...

will be more cheerful and thankful...

cos i know i always surrounded with loved...

well, happy 2010....

i had been stuck at home for the whole day...

only 1 word to say... BORED!!~~

but is okie, cos i really spend the whole day at home

jus for sleep....

and thats my 1st day of the year...yeah~~~

转眼又快一年了，

再过3天，又一个新的开始了。

希望一切顺心顺意，

希望一切如愿以偿。

加油吧！

sometime i might think people are greedy enough to ask for more...

by doing something that which hurting other and themselves...

trying the best way to communicate with people,

sometime i was thinking, why people always taking for granted..

is it a must to treat people in nice way?

whereby people never appreciated at all?

i am freaking tired to face this..

although i know that will be a best experience that i ever get...

i am freaking tired to think that..

although i know that i should and must done it...

and well...

i am just too nervous to handle it again...

*i hope i can spend this special day with you, seriously....

冬至快乐。。

这是回国后的第二个冬至。。。

比去年过的幸福，因为有妈亲手做的汤圆。。。

晚餐吃得很丰富，虽然不是同一个时间一起吃，

可是总会有团圆的意义，

因为我相信，只要有心，不管在哪，

家人的心，依然紧紧地跟我们系在一起。。。

对不起，最近因为工作太多，太忙，

忙到有点透不过气了，

没有多的时间陪你，

我知道你不开心，

除了对不起，还是对不起。。。

今天的一通电话，

把一切都说明了，

你的不安，我的忧虑，

今天已有了答案。

信息惹的祸，

不管我们如何反抗，

结果还是一样，

应不应该接受这一切？

回到过去~~~

我欣然接受一切的痛苦，

我欣然接受一切的误会，

是因为我相信，会有雨过天晴的一天。。。

但心，依然是痛的。。。

今天似乎很累人，

出了一些意想不到的状况，

虽然说是意料当中，可是真的太突然了，

我真的突然发现，原来我是多么的无助。。。

你问我怎么办，

我要面对时，你却说不好，

解决方式不多，但也不少，

可是偏偏就拿不定主意，

无能的我真的，很彷徨，

你问我的理智到哪去了，

我竟然回答不了。。。

对不起，事情发生时我总不在你身边，

对不起，每次都让你自己一个人面对。

我很想站出来，

可是偏偏你却不让，

你要自己面对，

你害怕他们会伤害我，

可是我不怕。。。

我宁可面对他们的是我，

起码你所受的伤害比我来得少。。。

我的心，也会好过些。。。

我想要告诉你，

我会跟你一起面对所有的事情，

请不要把我摔在一边。。。

因为酱，我会更痛。。。

xb's~~ black currant w aloe vera

mine~ Malt Milk Ice Blended

Our's~~Japanese Octopus

mine~ Barcelona Chicken Chop

and xb's~~ Marmite Chicken Chop

8th Dec...

5months.....

i was trying my very best to comfort myself...

to spend a day with xb...

and thanks to xb, you really brighten my day...

we will always go there...

movie day on Sunday...6th...

Twilight : New Moon...

Nice...Edward still that handsome...

Bella still that pretty...

but the ending of the story was like.....

ya, jus like what i facing now...

the promise dateline ended 2010 march...

now 2009 dec...

you had never seen wad i trying to do...

maybe you re right...

i shd not given out any promise...

and now everyday i was checking on my email,

seeking for better job...located at SG...

only GOD knows what am i doing...

no one knows...none!!!!! not even you know me...

i shdnt ask those stupid question in this evening

if only i know u not in the mood....

i shdnt reemphasized the promise

if only i know u won believe it....

and well, back to the point....

i still a LOOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i think i really need to change my mind...

doing the things that i think i need to do for my own,

i will and i should be the one who stop everything in this world...

cos a LOOSER never deserved people's thrust and love...

bye people....

your words make me feel hurt,

make me feel like bleeding,

make me feel like i really a looser...

xb ask me during lunch time,

she said: dear, have you ever regret to come back to msia?

looser said: yup...

she said: but why still you come back?

looser said: i dunno...maybe i shd say i dunno how to face million tons of problem i facing by myself?

she said again: but dear, i tot u got lots of frens there?

looser answered: well, ya..but still they will have their life, their bf/gf, will have a family...and will leave me.....

she said: how bout if we go there tgt?but u must work hard now to learn more b4 u go back there...at least u will not only stuck at outlet mgr but can up to other level...

looser said: sure of cos....i wanted this lots...but i need time... )=

and now......

well, karen ling really a looser...

and hey people,

just come and attack her,

she kind of died dog now....

no way and strength even to fight back,

cos clear and simple....

LOOSER.........

大老远的从KL驾着车到PENANG去喝她的喜酒，

心情起伏很大，不是因为她，而是因为与我同行的朋友们，

他们的任性让我吃不消。

看见蕙兰幸福的笑容，我觉得很开心，她找到了他，

一个真正疼爱她的他。只希望他们都是幸福的。

这次的喜宴，让我有机会再见到我新加坡的朋友们，

很开心，但却很累。。因为路途遥远，我一个人驾着车，

还要承受着如果走错路，被鸟的压力。。。

我很想我的白。。。

真的很想。。。

累了，我不想再去面对了，

累了，也不想再去思考了，

身心疲累了，脑袋也迟钝了，

如果这世界上，人类可以好像乌龟一样，

有着一层厚厚的保护层，

那该多好？起码，自己是真的有能力保护自己，

不让别人有机会伤害到你。。。

也不会让自己伤害到自己。。。

人，永远就是矛盾的。。。

day by day passed...

problem comes 1 by 1...

never stop...

i always think that after handover the outlet everything will be fine

but dun think so now a day..

it seem like everything not in the original plan..

handing over the outlet, people who took over make a mess...

staff complaining, customer complaining...

i seem like hopeless on the new management team...

but what else i can do?

i can only give time...

2nd customer calling jimmy for compliant..

i feel like useless, nothing i can do...

all my regular customers asking me to go back..

what can i do?????

这两天学了不少事，

学会了怎样好好分析情绪，

学会了怎样好好控制情绪，

也学会了面对自己的错。。。

从以前脾气暴躁的我，

到现在可以对事情忍气吞声的我，

真的不容易。。。

被人用粗口疯狂的臭骂5分钟，

令我失去理智，令我做错了一个错误的反应，

也令我陷入纠纷。。。

教我该如何让自己好过？

放手让staff面对新的经理，

让我觉得自己的残忍，

当我插手时，被人认为我从中作梗，

左右为难。。。

一心以为已经把事情解决了，

可是看来却是另外一件事情的开始，

一心以为这样可以帮到别人，

可是看来却是害了身边的人，

为什么每次都是这样？

好心帮人，又却做了坏事。。。

也许我真的太天真，

也许我真的太笨，

我很累，不想再走下去了。。。

把我带走吧，也许这才是最好的办法。。。

# 4 个月了，

好开心，能够跟你一直的走下去，

我珍惜现在你给我的一切，

有你在的分分钟都妙不可言。。。#

今天的心情只有一个字能形容，

烦。。。超烦！！！！！！！！！！！！！

遇上了一场小意外，

被一个懵懵恰恰的人撞伤了左脚，

脚跺有点肿，膝盖有点黑青，

走起路来一拐一拐的，

有点帅。。。哈哈哈哈

因为跟铁拐李很像，

但就没有满脸胡须。。。

我没事，不用担心。。。

这场小意外，也许会给我一个从生的机会。。。

原来真相有时并不是想象中那么的难以接受，

有个窍门的，在知道真相前，把那所谓的真相想的更加的残酷，

到你真正去面对时，反而觉得它犹如皮毛。。。

thank you for all the wishes,

all the gifts...

and all the sms....

i had a wonderful day..

27th oct 2009...

a wonderful day for me...

spending a whole day out with xb..

although nowhere else to go,

but jus feel nice...

10月27日晚上10点27分，

你的一句话让我觉得很开心，很甜。。。

谢谢你陪了我一整天。 <333

it coming again...

still something never get out from my mind...

everytime when it comes near to me...

i got kinda of phobia bout it...

how can i get rid with these? and it won be happen again??

i had started a new life here and these the 2years i passing thru the day without u,

but why still u haunted me?

phobia cos i really scared it will happen again,

never had these feeling since last nite after a song...

i had been thinking too much maybe...

but i jus cant help..

i really scared and worried...

* everything in my mind now is not for me,

everything in my mind now is jus for u,

caring bout ur feeling, ur thinking, and everything,

i jus dun wan you to be hurt...

but it seem like never got to work out...

and you re hurt, sorry it was my bad*