i had been wondering wth is going on with u..

i cant get to see the old you at all..

her leaving really that make you hurt?

and i tot u had knw how it feel...

told u since it start..

it won be any good ending there...

but u insist..and i let u be..

and now..see...wth is going on...

everyone is talking bout u..

how many times more i ned to cover you?

u re now creating prob...

and i become the one who clearing all this shit for u?

izit fair enough for me?

you never put on my shoes to think i bet...

try and stand in my position...

and tell me what shd i do?

现在的心情很凌乱，

非一般的乱。。。

有谁会在我身边支持我？

i wasnt in a good mood...

kee tong left us...it was so sudden...

he was 1 of my trainer in McDonalds...

super good guy...teach me lots...

friendly, cheerful, helpful...

he thought me lots...

and even we had some small talk and smoke after class...

he was there to help me when i get bully by AE...

i tot i can work with him some other time in BK...

i received the news said that he was brain dead, and lying in hospital last week...

and today, karine told me he had leave us..

i was force to accept this...

kee tong, we love you...

you re the candles for us in McDonalds family...

forever and ever, u will in our heart...

my heart was terrible pain...

i miss PY so much, but i cant get to talk to PY..

i was online everynight after work...

but...ya, this is wad i get...

pain pain and pain.....

the feeling was back...

mid of the year always make my 'feeling' sick...

i missed you, missed you lots...

jus like seeing you every corner...

checking up my phone,

and i realise that i really got noone to talk to...

song that you love was playing..

it bring me back to those days we were together...

open up the memory of us..

you are so clear there with me...

i wanna a cry...

a bad cry... i wanted to let it out..

and really let out...

i was holding my handphone for the whole night few days back..

i was so helpless, and moody..

i check on my phonebook, kinda of 讽刺, cos i din ever saw a number that i can call..

it was 1.30am in the middle of the night..

and at the point of time, i feel that i really got no one there..

what a pity me...

i was alomost drunk..

although doc say i cant take beer..

i confuse whether am i happy or sad..

got happy got sad...

happy cos i can get along with the staffs here..

(althought everywhere i go, staffs are close to me )

sad? i dunno how to express it out..

but anyway...it will be fine..

and i really tired...

wad a tiring weeks..

but yup..i still have sometimes to get online..

check on the time i blogging..

this kind of timing, ppl around me had slep soundly..

i jus back from work..

ya...seriously..

well...i jus dun wan the blog rotten

and i am here to write a little bit things..

nothing much bout me to update..

getting close with my staffs now..

but they had piss off by my so call 'supervisor'..

well..i am trying to do something on it..

and i realise..i getting tired..

i feel great when looking at hooi lan de ROM photo..

finally this lady get a guy that who really love her..

and now, they really get togather...

i will send you my best wishes... (=

i can understand how you feel,

and tat's y i told u to ignore the msg..

feeling betray...

i always get these feeling..

but yupp..it won minus any hurt feeling 

doesnt matter that you find out urself,

or i telling u the truth...

maybe u re right..

time..time might be help...

times....